Meanderings of The Pensive

I hate sarah lindsay

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 18:56:28 GMT

You know, I really gotta post to my lj more often. It's somehow, better. It think. It feels weird to be speaking and writing in english after fanime and two intensive weeks of japanese and japanese skit learning. And monday's final. Really, right now I'm just trying to kill time before mom laura and my grandmother get here....ugh jsut a few more days, and then I get to go home. But nnnooooo, nothing in my life can ever be that easy, because as if ruining two years of my life wasn't enough, sarah lindasy has now decided to host a BRING YOUR OWN SUBSTANCE party at MY house on wednesday. What I want to do is call my landlords and tell them because I do have concrete evidence, but then spencer would get convicted too, and I'm afraid of that. But what if they don't call it off, or move it someplace else?

God, you know, I jsut HATE SARAH LINDSAY! For using me, for being such a class A bitch, for being rude to my friends, for spreading rumors, for expecting everything and giving nothing, and just for attempting to turn everyone against me. Fuck you. And yes, I have said this to her face, but what does it matter when a blog is made for this exact reason? lol

All Hail my Researching skills!

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 01:38:59 GMT

It's weeks like these that make me glad that I will probably not have to write essays next quarter. I've spent the entirety of this week making my bed look like a mini library with all the book notes and papers spread out on it. IN a strange, perverse sor tof way, It makes me feel powerful and necessary to get all this done....but after two allnighters of falling asleep with my clothes on in the middle of books, and waking up with binding imprints on my face, I think i'm ready to call it quits tomorrow. So once I finish my last essay tonight, all I have to worry about are finals. Yay.

So that's the first part of honoring my research skills. The other is that I FOUND JOSS WHEDON'S ORIGINAL SCRIPT OF SERENITY: THE KITCHEN SINK!!!!!!!!!!! it took me two days to find it, and then suddenly, there it was. And man, I read the whole thing in 3 hours, AND WHY DIDN'T JOSS MAKE THIS VERSION???!!!! Fuck universal for limiting him to 2 hours. I mean, what would lord of the rings have been if new line had said "thanks ever so much pete, but do you ready expect your target audience to sit through five hours of film? make it two." I recommend to all my friends to read it, or all those that're interested in Firefly and browncoating awesomeness TO READ THIS VERSION! It's not that serenity was a bad movie...far from it. It's jsut that this version was more honest, more consistent with the characters and the pace of the show! Who's with me? HUH?

Unfortunately I'm gonna have to spend the rest of my night trying not to think about the script, forcing myself not to keep looking it over, and tryign to care about 1840-1853 potato crop cycles. Alright everyone, I'm gonna need some serious fun time over spring break...who's with me?

What Kind of Happy Are You?

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 02:35:36 GMT

You Are Engaged

You feel completely absorbed and intrigued right now. You're cheerfully busy.
You're alert and completely involved with everything you do. You don't walk through life half-asleep.

If you're interested and engrossed, then you feel incredibly happy.
You are constantly curious and never bored. There's too much to be fascinated with!

What Kind of Happy Are You?

What Year Do You Belong In?

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 02:33:42 GMT

You Belong in 1995

With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

Wow...everyone always did say I was soo nineties.

Gorrammit Joss

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 02:30:05 GMT

As a new browncoat, but a longtime fan of Joss, I have to say what really kept me starving for the show was Mal and Inara's interactions. It kept me intrigued enough to watch episode 2, and from there I was hooked. Even in the first episode you know...the way he looks at her before he makes any important decision, almost as if he's waiting for her silent opinion. And she gives it too, in long gazes thar both of them will never admit to. But this, this terminally ill thing...

I'm not going to say that it doesn't work for the show. Admittedly, it makes a horrible sort of sense. Joss is famous for this. How the man manages to write inredibly involved, intricate plots with equally enthralling characters in nearly every situation is incredible in of itself. But the way he is completely unashamed to create the most intense and desperate stories about love that truly are the heart of his stories...well, I think that's what sets him apart. So Inara dying...yeah, he'd go there. I mean, he killed Wash. And look at the state of Buffy and Angel...still madly in love, but away because they can't be together...I mean what other director would have the guts to twist a plot that way that years later still has me reeling. Yeah, 'nuff said.

But yes, if Joss had suggested that Inara was dying I would believe it. Past history has shown that he would in fact go there.BUT I DON'T LIKE IT DAMMIT! I mean, Mal and Inara are tortured enough by their feelings, their pride...I mean, more so than any of his other characters. Now I would not be a true Whedon fan unless I sadistically enjoyed seeing my favorite couple in pain. BUT I THINK THIS IS A LITTLE EXCESSIVE!

I agree with the person below. I don't know If I could've gotten over her death in the show...especially if they eventually tried to set Mal up with someone else later. Then, I wouldn't care how much of a slave I am to Whedon, I owuld stop watching the show. I couldn't take that. Somehow, I could take it if she died in like season 5 and he stoically mourned her for the last two seasons...but not if there was another person. For Mal, there could be no one else after her.

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FACEBOOK IS THE DEVIL!

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 00:00:54 GMT

Ok, I offically love my privte livejournal. I've jsut spent an hour on facebook trying to get back to people....Man, what the fuck are gifts? or grafitti?

But, you know, it could grow on me!

And I just spent about 4 hours identifying rocks...and I think this one guy greg hates me.

I'm Home!

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 09:11:12 GMT

It has never felt so good to be home! I love college, but now that I'm home I realize just how claustrophoic it is sometimes. It' s a little surreal, but then again, I always feel that way after traveling. :) I talked with my parents about college for HOURS! they're so much cooler about things than I expected. Like, they expected that I'd have a beer, and I haven't yet. I ended up telling them absolutely everything. It was so cool. And after I got off the bus, my mom had food in the car for me, and my room's all clean, and it seems huge now that my room in college is pretty small. I already have a list of things I need from home. it just feels so incredibly good to be home :). never has it felt so good before.

weed

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 23:46:45 GMT

there is a town called WEED, CA just thought you should all know

VISITATION

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 21:32:52 GMT

I AM COMING HOME ON FRIDAY! for those of you attending ryan's party on friday, I will be seeing you there. I probably won't be there till 8:30 or nine o'clock, cause it takes a while to get over the hill as they say in santa cruz. I am feeling a little claustrophic here. I haven't been out of santa cruz for a almost three weeks, not counting ren faire...which I have to tell you all about. I'll see you on Friday!

COLLEGE...OMG!

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 07:46:51 GMT

COLLEGE IS BITCHIN! Ok, it was totally worth the wait. I've been here less than 36 hours and I am addicted. Everyone on my floor is hella chill. Right now it's midnight and there's people in my room, using my wireless connection. Everyone else is wasted and at moat jam. At Merrill, my college inside of ucsc, there's this dry moat full of murals and everyone's partying till one am in the moat with music. It's more rave, because the fire trucks and wheeled someone away who drank too much. Everyone is wasted right now. I've already been told if I want to smoke pot, do it in the woods , but the MINUTE we got back from the welcome meeting, aka "ALCOHOL'S BAD FOR YOU", everyone immediately locked the door and had a drinking party. Tyler rolled on someones shoes, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEVIN. devin's the man! we're chillin right now in my room. Everyone's totally close on the floor. We're having so much fun it's exhausting. EVERYONE SAW THE FAMILY GUY PREMIERE RIGHT? if you didn't I have to hunt you down. but make no mistake...THIS IS A PARTY SCHOOL! i've already had a shot. No, I haven't gotten drunk. but judging by the way things are going, I probably will at the end of four years. No I am not a problem child. Me and Naomi's room is the substance free room. make no mistake ....B DORM IS WHERE IT'S AT!

Wassup!

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 16:55:11 GMT

It's official. I have sold my soul to ebay. but besides that, I'm shouting out to all my california friends! Laura's jUST FINE! lol. we're at my friend alicia's house right now, and It's the definition of a rainy day. It's about 40-50 degrees here today, and raining. I LOVE IT! Family's not doing so well though...everyone's arguing! It's no fun. I'm glad I got the fuck outta there! But yeah, Laura's doing a ok, and I have to worry about my goddamn summer homwork! I'm in college! SUMMER HOMEWORK SHOULD NOT EXIST IN COLLEGE! anywho, we're actually doing good and I'll talk to ya all soon!

oh wow

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 08:39:25 GMT

So wow.
I started the week wishing I could find out more about MAC, and now I'm finishing the week with about $400 worth fo merchandise...you see what happense when dani finds out she has money...lol. I'm gonna have to work my ass off when I get back. But I'm so excited thinking that when I get back, all this awesome inventory will be waiting for me.

And I'm starving. It's about 1:30am on Saturday. I decided not to sleep at all since I have to get up at 4:00 am anyway, and I get home from work at 11:00. I'm so tired wbout watching all the food I eat. I jsut want to see some results. They said I lost five pounds, so my cholesterol must've gone down. hopefully.

And I haven't updated in a while...sorry ya'll . Now everyone wants me to get a facebook...I really am not that good at blogging....death to all...

I don't think I've used this userpic yet... I'm about to watch P&P...hey don't judge me andrew liked it!

Santa Cruz!

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 00:21:55 GMT

Hey! I'm in Santa Cruz waiting for my orientation tomorrow so I thought I'd update pics from Japan. I can't post all of them, but they're wicked awesome!

I'm Back!

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 05:28:59 GMT

So I'm back from Japan, I've been awake for almost 2 days, and I am tired out of my mind and Laura and I are chillin' watching CCS. So there.

I MISS JAPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yay For Bitching!

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 06:12:09 GMT

okay, so this week has officially been the worst week I've ever had at work. I woke up on tuesday and answer the phone to have my boss yell at me. But we all know that story. So today I come to work and Alyssa says the ink isn't working very well in the cash register, and that she had to replace the paper.

Me: Does Silvia know about the ink and the paper?

Alyssa: Yeah, she knows.

Me: Okay cool.

Then later, when the mop broke in two and we had to call her, I handed the phone to ryan to have him tell her what was going on. And then he said that he printed the total for the day, but that the ink wasn't working well, but he says "You already knew that". Apparently alyssa didn't tell her. So I get to listen to Siliva sound very dissappointed in me and say "look, we'll talk about it at the staff metting tomorrow." when iT WASN'T MY FAULT! I'm so NOT taking anyone's word for anything anymore. If anyone says yeah I told her, I'm calling her anyway. jesus christ, this wasn't my fault!

GOOD NEWS: I got my violin back! After working up the courage to go to school and ask around, I started with the janitor:

Me: Hey I think i left something in the band room and could you unlock the door so I could check?

Janitor: I don't have the authority to do that. Ask the registrar.

Me<to registrar>: Need to check blah blah <insert previous explanation here>

Registrar: I don't have the authority to do that. Ask the principal's Secretary.

Me< disgusted> walks out door.

Me: sees mR. Powers walking down the walkway. "hey Mr. powers! I need someone to open a door, and no one has the authority to do it but the principal's secretary. DO ya know where she is?

Mr. Powers: Hey Dani! sure, jsut go down that hallway and her dor is at the end. Say Hi to Laura for ME! (The funny thing was I graduated almost two weeks ago and he didn't seem at all preturbed that I was there) oh well.

Me: walks up to prinicpal's secretary repeat of explanation, until she calls up a janitor to walk me there and to OPEN THE DOOR!

So we walk, and I try to talk to him but he doesn't speak English very well. But he was awesome. He opens to door, and THERE'S MY VIOLIN SITTING ON THE COUNTER!

Me: runs over and hugs it

Janitor Mike: Is mildly disturbed.

Me: thank you! <RUNS TO CAR AND CRIES INNER TEARS OF HAPPINESS.>

Now I've finally graduated high school

Just another update

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 09:18:34 GMT

Wow, I REALLY need to stop reading buffy and Angel fanfictions. And watching buffy. In fact, I just really need to get that whole thing out of my system. Their love cuts me so deep that I can't stop thinking about it. Thnk god for japan its useful distraction.

So i seriously fucked up last night at work. Graned, the cash register froze, the stor ewas packed for two hours, and I'm working with a newbie who didn't know what the fuck he was doing, so I was the manual human cash register who had memorized all the values, but this wasn't enough for my boss, who called me first hting int he morning to yell at me that I didn't close the store right. And the kid I was working with never listens to me! I'll as him "could you please wash the dishes" and he's like "no that's ok. " So, i end up doing everythiNG! But luckily I don't think my boss is mad at me anymore, and I found out that nobody really likes this kid... so yeah.

The sims is going well. I've made 4 plant sims, and as elder they can still have plant babies, so that's cool. And mor those of you who don't know, drinking tasty or mouthwatering eggplant juice can give you free skill points, albeit random points, but still !

I miss Laura already. She's only been gone 2 days and I still miss her.

Tomorrow I'm gonna stop by school and se eif someone could open the band room for me. then the only thing I'll need to tellmom about would be the tumor....(nobody panic, It's not serious)

Owarimashitayo!

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 07:14:25 GMT

It's Over! I made it, and skirted by with a C- in trig. I can still go to college AND jAPAN! yay! happiness abounds. The powers that be didn't completely hate me today!

I can't believe it's all over. I woke up this morning in high school, and now i'm out. Gotta go to graduation tomorrow, and then I don't have to care. First thing I'm doing is DUMPING OUT MY TRIG BINDER! after I visit with my relatives who ahve annoyingly lodged themselves here for two weeks.

I gave my japanese class an inpromptu party with cake and thanked them all for being wonderful. But as the day went on, I could feel that familiar feeling of flight, f my spirit soaring out of the place I was in. I am officially ready to graduate. Look out ya'll

I Loathe the administration!

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 22:44:41 GMT

Hello and welcome to another session of: Bitching With Dani. Today was just another day that added fuel to the fire and viewers to the show.

Hajimemashouka? Hai <for those unusued to japanese, I asked "shall we begin? ok" >

so today sucked mainly cause i finally had my TRIG FINAL which I feel no better about and really hope I get a 61 on. Brrr. otherwise, my future is screwed. Summer school and no UCSC. I would despair!

Then, the administration decides to give us the last FUCK YOU to the seniors by giving us senior checklist. This is techinically the administration's job, but hell, why not make the rest of us suffer. Like everything else, nothing in this school is planned correctly. And it's just this school! I know, cause of been in other ones where things run much more smoothly! Senior checklist is a list that each of your teachers must sign saying that you turned in your textbook and they acknowledge it. Not so bad right? WRONG! the second half of the checklist is the part that the textbook holder, bookeeper, librarian, attendance office, registrar, and counselor must sign. All this must be turned in on thursday, the last day of school. Oh, and the second half of the sheet can only be signed until all your teachers turn in lists specifying which peridos turned in what, and it also must be done in the 15 minutes between our last final and graduation practice.

SO I turned in all my textbooks monday and tuesday, got most of my list signed by the people who took pity on me. So all I had to do today was go to teh textbook holder and get it stamped, then I could go free and not have to do any of this tomorrow and be late for grad practice. WRONG! After waiting in line for 45 minutes behind four people, I finaly give the textbook lady the checklist. But lo and behild, sensei didn't turn in a sheet confirming that I turned in my textbook, so I have to come tomorrow with 400 other seniors. literally. After 45 minutes

Textbook lady: Sorry, but you could go and get written confirmation from your teacher and wait in line again and then I could stamp it.

Me: Do you mind if I just cry right now? ( yest I did say this)

Crowd behind me: Murmur sympathetic noises...

Goddamn! Well, i know I'll finish my geology final in like 30 minutes tomorrow, so i wonder if Ms. Costello wouldn't mind if I just went and got that stamped. Oh, and afterwards I punched a wall so hard I nearly dented the wall and now am sporting a battle bruise. But it helped you know?

Anywho, I need everyone to offer prayers to anything that acts as a deity and/or has control voer the universe to help override my feeling that I actually failed the trig final. SOMEBODY HELP ME!

Surreality of Sentimentality

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 06:43:18 GMT

Oh Wow.

So today was my last day of economics and AP literature. Surprisingly, I was more sentimental about leaving econ than AP Lit! It's jsut that I sat next to such a great group of people, most of which I only started really talking to halfway through the semester. Won't really miss patronizing MS. Davis though. College, in that respect, will be way better. Oh, the final was pretty easy. I probably got a B. But at this point, I really don't give a damn. Although, it was so awesome because 20 minutes into the final a voice says above my ear " Ohayou gozaimasu Dani-san." Sensei walked into the final in order to give me an invitation to her graduating Japanese Senior party tomorrow. You know the priceless parts of the Mastercard commercials? Yeah, this was one of those moments, to see the look on Ms. Davis's face. Problem is I have to work tomorrow...I can only come for half an hour. damn! But anywho :) it was so weird a tthe end when the bell rang. What do you say to people you've really connected with, who've only know you a short time? Have a nice life?! thewhole idea is way too surreal. Dali ain't got nothin on me <insert broad smile here> Sadie gave me a hug, and Raye shook my hand. I'll see Kelly in trig tomorrow though, so no worries. I'd like to say that before I forget, Brittany is one of the coolest people I've ever known. her zest, vivacity, and style have collided to produce a sort of Western AI YAZAWA-ESQUE figure. I wish her great success.

But Ap Lit was a different story. Even though ms. leadingham siad I actually have greatly improved as a writer- which I REALLY needed to hear, since AP english beats your individual voice right outta you- I ahve never fit in that class. Everyone knew each other, everyone baked each other brownies, everyone wore dresses on tuesdays. it was a little too together. The first day was episode one of Pleasantville. We're allgonna see the movie we made on thursday before senior barbeque. sweet. But looking all year at the close group of people made me do the outsider thing again...where I go all Aragorn-esque. Except aragorn was deeply in love and had a place to call home but chose not to. I guess I was in fact just talking about the cloak and the awesome boots.

I'm gonna try to make the first scrapbook of my life with my 250 pics from japantown to the last day of school. Who knows... it's all too surreal. Dali help me, but I've moved on too many times in my life to be a part of something, but that doesn't stop me from wanting all the same.

Ok then

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 07:19:52 GMT

So another Monday passed by, albeit uneventfully. Except I met mad -awesome tyoshida! YAY! This week is entirely too surreal. I'll be saying it all week, but hell everyone else agrees with me. I took about a hundred pictures today. I want to make a scrapbook for the end of this year...but I guess I'll have to reserve about 100 dollars worth of materials. Damn. I took pics of everything... from hallway views to people I didn't know that well. If there's one thing moving so much taught me, it's to remember all you can...you never know when u might need it.

Like trig. i feel better after I saw Joe for the last time and he worked out the kinks in my logic...except when it comes to decomposistion of fractions....then I taught him. mwhahahhah
God, I can't wait till that final's over and we can go get KFC together, in high school, for the last time.

Inspiration...not

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 06:42:14 GMT

So i went to senior inspirational today, the pc answer to a baccalaureate ceremony minus the religious under(over) tones. I felt like an outsider, an intruder on a private party. I've shared too little with these peole to be a part of them. And as I listened to the speakers talk about freshmen year and share private jokes, it reminded me once again that I'm a drifter, a wanderer, who is pretty much internally cursed to never settle down. i already feel in the wind the stir to move again. i'm a mess. After the ceremony Andrew Jari Laura and I went to chevys and then to Jaris to watch SOuth Park. lol. Summer is gonna rock!

It's weird to think that By the end of this week I WON'T BE IN HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE! I think I'm ready to leave now. It's been fun, but now the handholding and coddling ends. Time for college. and Japan!

must get a 61 on the trig final...if don't no UCSC for me. :(

Btw... I'm writing this entry on my new laptop! for thsoe of you who speak my language see translation 1. for those of you who don't, see translation 2:
1. It's and HP invent with a 64 NVIDIA graphics card, AMD turion 64 processor, windows vista (which works really well), lightscribe dvd/ cd player, a webcam, and 120 gig hard drive.

2. it's a top of the line laptop that's wicked awesome and comes with all the things hardcore gamers want.

Laura and I are halfway through one of my favorite movies "Under the tuscan sun" it's corny, I know, but that movie, no matter how many times i watch it, always inspires me. And on that note, let me end by quoting one of my favorite quotes from the movie :

"a terrible idea.....don't you just love those?"

more Blogthings

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 03:44:29 GMT

This quiz caught my eye

You Are Jean Grey

Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death).
Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally!

Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals

.....does this mean i get to make out with Wolverine...because then I'm totally down..:)-

Blogthings

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 03:38:14 GMT

all that hard work deserved a test.

You Should Date A Japanese Guy!

You're an interesting blend of traditonal and modern
And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength
Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color
Or get married in a traditional white kimono!

OMG! Japan, look out in july, here I come!

The Kick Ass Essay!

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 03:30:36 GMT

OMG! This is one of the best essays I've ever written! My nerdom knows no bounds, cause I enjoyed writing it!
I'm not posting it cause someone might steal it...but I'm so proud! Even after Ap English tried to beat it out of me, I've still got creativity.

Oh, and everyone listen to The river by good charlotte. Don't roll ur eyes, it's actually an awesome song, as compared to most of their earlier stuff. It's a little deep.

RIGHTEOUS NERDISM!

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 01:11:49 GMT

HAPPINESS ABOUNDS! i jsut finished page one of this kick ass essay that I'm writing the get accepted intot eh scholars program at UCSC. go me. its rocks! then again....the essay topic rocks...

:) I'll update later when I'm done, and post the essay, if anyone's interested.